I was going to go to the movies today for the 12:10 matinee of “Puss in Boots: The Last Wish.” The movie theater — the only one left in New Haven — is just a mile away. I used to walk or ride my bike to it to see films in the daytime.
But since it’s winter — even a mild winter — and I’m in my mid-eighties and I’ve already walked my daily two miles today before breakfast, I planned to take my car.
I prefer seeing films at their first screening of the day. That’s when I’m feeling fresh and the audience is the smallest. Sometimes fewer than 10 people. It’s like a critic’s screening, which is often what I took advantage of when I was the film critic for the New Haven Register, the city’s major paper.
I’ve been lazy for the past couple of years, ever since covid came to town. I haven’t been to the movies in nearly a year. There haven’t been many films I’ve been eager to see. But there have been some and I’ve missed them because I was careless or distracted or inert.
Going to the movies seemed more trouble than it was worth. And parking the car is always a drag. The older you get, the easier it is to talk yourself out of doing what you used to do routinely. It takes a special effort now to put down the book I’m reading and get out of my recliner chair.
And Turner Classic Movies keeps my eyes focused on fine films from the past. Most contemporary films in theaters are instantly forgettable. Even the ones that win prizes. And they’re always in color, which can be a drawback.
But I want to see the “Puss in Boots” film to check out its animation. Animation for the past six to eight years has reached its highest levels of artistic and technical expertise. The Peter Rabbit films of a couple of years ago are not just flawless but stunningly magical and their seamless relation to live-action is brilliant.
But just as I was ready to leave this morning for the first screening, it started to snow. Very, very lightly at first. Just thin flakes falling on the ground like stardust. But then it quickly took hold and started to fall like a tapestry and then like a thin curtain. And that was enough for me to talk myself out of going.
I hung up my coat and then stood by the front windows and watched the snow fall quietly on the grass and on the cars parked along the street and on the porch steps.
And a feeling of peace and intimacy and nostalgia and a kind of animal passivity took hold and the idea of fighting my way through this light though wet lace curtain of flakes seemed to go against my deeper need to stay put in my cave.
The snow lasted a little more than an hour and then stopped. It left no more than an inch. But by then, I had read deeper into to Cormac McCarthy’s second novel in his latest two-volume work, and I’d eaten a peanut butter sandwich and a couple of ginger snaps and sipped a cup of coffee.
And I figured that I had done what I needed to do and that the snow — in all its faint, shallow descent — had given me the excuse to take care of this interior business at the right time and in the right place, even though I didn‘t know it was due.
I will go out later and brush the snow off my car. And maybe tomorrow, Puss and Boots and I will get together in the dark and disappear into another layer of reality.
Nature has a way of making me stop and think, even when I have other plans. The difference between Nature and animation is that one of them is in the street and the other is on a screen.
That I can still tell the difference puts me in rapidly diminishing minority.